A miserable Day!

I believed this week is my break down! Since i had finish and handing all my assgn n work.. i get lost! I suffered that be4... i really feel lost and unconfortable with my laziness! I think ppl just can;t take things easy when they got nth to do,, especially me! Hiah~~ Lord please rescue me! Actually today i was ok in the morning when i'm uni. Until i think of my problems that i figured out last night! this really make me lost concentrations and couldn't stop thinking. I did prayed and said put upon Lord's hand but i dunno, it just couldn't! I tried to have my won financial independent and management.. but i failed! I just felt myself so uselss! How come? arggg.... i hate all these.. i been trying so hard.. not to spend, even i didn't go shopping.. but i still couldn;t make it! now i feel myself.. just so little!
I never felt like that be4.. i even felt ashame of myself! I even tired hard to build some human relationships.. but it also doesn't really work out. This really make me wonder and know myself truely. All these while i tot i'm sociable and friendly! but now i don;t think so.. i really need to re-examine myself! Need to reconsider what is the purpose of my life.. what are my aims.. and re-build my ownself! I believe God want me to know.. I be someone that He wants and not the one i tot i'm! He really changed my life.. tougher than i tot.. but i believe this is worth it! Someday i gonna face it, so it's better i found out early so that i won't regreat for the rest of my life! But i really need Him to show me the guideline and apply miracle on me in this moment! I really need HIM badly.. LORD, please listen my prayers and words of my heart.. i really hope YOU do and.. show me the light! At lease let's me have peace in heart and walk with me in this moments.. through my exam! I really really wish YOU could help me.. to put down my burdens! Thank You and all in the name of Jesus Christ! AMEN!