Miserable Heart!!!

Today i did this law paper.. and it was so hard!! i answered it badly and couldn't finish it!!! Actually i feel quite sad.. but i tot.. is ok and really nothing i could do. Yet, i got this peace feelings in heart. Or mayb some give up feelings.. that make feel or ask me not too worry about tomorrow and coming paper! Or mayb i just finish one paper.. really wanna distress myself! But some people really feel i'm lazy.. yet try to make me stressful! Time for me to leave.. very soon.. about 41 hours to go!! hehheh.. i really exicited, i won;t feel sad or hard..although i might miss someone.. but i know he doesn't miss me! :~( Apart from that, i really need to learn to be alone and independent.. i know one day.. things that i need to face and go through also by myself. Except God who always willing to be with me. Actually i know exam is hard and stressful.. i tried not to make myself crazy.. but then i only realise actually some ppl.. not think that way.. when u not stressful.. they migh thtink u lazy! I believe ppl have different way of stress.. some ppl might creid when stress, some ppl laugh, some ppl might eat and much more there can do. it just different ppl have different style. Maybe i just different from U! I really think this matching was not suit! Everytime feel hard n the way thing we do are so different! haih~~..
Lord Father, i dunno wat to do.. now i feel tired and sleepy.. but i still need to go on with my studies.. i dowan this and wanna finish this soon! I really got no confidence and i feel that next sem i might suffer again! Lord, please.. help me.. i don't wish to make anyone sad or dissapointed. Especially YOu Lord! I know some things that You don;t like me to do.. i'm trying and doing.. but sometimes i failed. I'm sorry Father.. forgive my sins and my disobedience. Even i felt ashame for my preparation.. this sem i really got no time to prepare better.. and of course i blame myself for the laziness that had in me. I guess i can't mind or care how ppl feel about me.. coz i myself also feel that i am lazy! Haih~~, the person just can't support me. Never ask how i go and how's my exam. Maybe he just react normal coz he got exam.. and love himself more than anyone! Lord, i really handle all my worries and troubles upon You. Including my fear over the malaysia customs.. I believe in Your power and show me the way. Thank You Father for being with me during the exam.. and hope you could give me sign and be with me for tomorrow exam as well. I pray all these in the name of Jesus Christ! AMEN!