Who Am I? - Which one is ME???

Getting confuse of CANMY and KEN MEE. Wondering which is which and who am i? To different people i'm a different person. i don't have the real me mah?
I used to or maybe i'm still... a person that very active, cheeky, friendly, love western style, like to hang around, outgoing, travelling, sporting, talkertive, violence, rude, crazy person. I mean just a person that easy going and hyper-active. Or sometimes to people i might be WILD. I guess.. sometimes i am.

But these few years... i slowly became "TAME". I no longer like to go those disco places and mix around. I used to go "wet" a lot... but now i feel getting old and is not my time anymore. I start to think of family and stable down. Add on, i got Lap that came from different world of mine.. he changed me a lot and me see things in different. I believe the most powerful things behind us is Jesus Christ. Knowing Lord change me a lot. But this really make me struggle and think things in between.

In one hand of me, i wan to keep on my "old Ken Mee" . Just wanna be a person that easy going.. not responsible type la.. having fun all around. Especially my TRAVELLING DREAM! Joining my western freinds and backpacker all around the world. But whenever i think of Lap, i stop down. Coz i know i cannot go without him.. once i did that for sure something will come between us. I remember telling this to Jacky before. And he said, he believe i dare to travel by myself and things that i predicted will also happened.

Actually apart from this, there are many my old habits wanted to "come out" so much. But i just put them under control. I really stuggle as in like... wonder who am i? Which one i wanna be? Do i wan to be a crazy active gal that never stop or be a lady that serve her family? I really dunno... i dowan ppl complains bout me.. yet i wanna have my own life and fun of it. However, one thing i for sure i never give up.. is my Dream.. to TRAvel All aRounD the W0rLD. I mean travel as many place as i could in my whole life. So, i believe no matter what am i going to be.. i'll still arrange time for me to do "TRaVelLing".

Well, i would like to Thanks Heavenly Father.. coz currently i'm in a position that travel a lot and gave me a family that love to travel as well. I really appreciate that and Thanks for saving me. I believe i will face a lot of temptation and i'm a person that easy get influence, but i know Lord Jesus will always be with me, protect me and love me no matter what. Although, i face difficulties and struggle, but with no regrets of it. Meanwhile, i need to Thank Him for "Taming" me. Without HIM, i might facing something even worst than now. I handle my struggle and searching my true self into Your Hand! AMEN!