Broken Heart!

I couldn't imagine things had come to this stage! Now only i see real face, the real poeple's face. When time and status had change people also change. I guess he already got what he wants.. so i no longer worth to exist in his life. When ppl get what he/she wants, they will just forget everything. Now i start to learn in this world there is no eternal love. Love will not be everlasting... NOT from mankind! Only GOD will give you that!!!
Thanks for things you had showed to me and things you had done. The temporary love you given let me learn a lesson. I really need to rely more on God and not human!
Lord, sorry for everything i had done. I really very long never blog here. I really need to pray to You and ask for changes. Those anger and devil had take control over me. I really out of my mind and going crazy soon! Lord, please show me Your love and let me know that this world still full of things i worth to live. Heavenly Father, your child here cying out for help! I dowan live in darkness anymore! I dowan all these fake relationship and very tired to live in this such "wave" life. I need a rest.. please comfort me and be with me. All this i surrender in Your hand! AMEN!