Hard Life

I gonna crazy soon!!! I can't stand this kind of life anymore.. Lord why u wanna put me into such position!!! Always make my life miserable!!! thisng just can't solve no matter how hward we try to solve it out!!! I really think the best way for me is to leave and don;t care bout every single things happen here. SHould i leave??? Lord Father please tell me what should i do? I really wanna give up and couldn't wait any longer. I really miserable and dunno which are the right direction. Why people have to face this kind of difficulties and struggle. I really wanna know,... God please tell me the answer.

I just feel really really lonely. Is like the hardest feeling i ever have, those loneliness couldn't compare with what i used to have when the first year in melbourne. Because this is like ur family around u.. but they make u sad and the loneliness just feel the empty heart! Why Lord!!?? Why i can't improve myself and be a better person??

I hate myself... i need someone that can share my tears with. Wat direction should i go for my career pathway?? How come things couldn't turn better!!!??? Father i beg u listen to my prayers.. no matter how bad am i or sinful i am, can You please be with me for this moment?? I pray that my sister issue can be solve.. she no need to leave and do such stupid programs. May Lord be with her and see God during such hard time. In the name of Jesus I prayed. AMEN!