I got interview!!!

Hehehe.. finally after a week bored, i got 3 interview in a role!!! Actually God's grace happened everywhere and anytime.. as long as in His time. Yesterday.. is a very hard and confusing day.. i was pretty upset.. because question had hit my mind and make me realise i have to leave Melbourne and go back to M'sia. I was question why i wanna stay.. then i realise i couldn't find any good reason. So, with a heavy hard.. my decisions reach 70%+ to leave Melb. However, my heart still very "heavy" and struggle... then i went to my cousin's place. Talked to my cousin sister in-law.. She suggested me.. to stay.. if she is me. This because.. she said i'm still young and is ok.. if take a year.. give it a try to work here. Then, our discussion go on until.. she also find that.. really not much point for me to stay.. then she said.. "ok la u go home la.. once u back there, soon u will in track". As i remember all these while my prayers.. to Lord, i surrender my future to Him.. if He wants me to stay He'll provides me a job or else i leave.

Then, i though.. mayb He really wants me to leave.. since i didn;t get any jobs or signs for this few weeks. Then suddenly, bout 7something.. i received a call from a marketing company ask me for an interview tomorrow.. which is today. Then, i felt more stuggle and confuse. So means what?? Stay or not? Anyway, i'll go on.. coz i have to attend the interview, give a try and see what's the outcome.
Then, this morning when i about to wake up.. i received 2 calls from other company for interviews as well. Both are also sales and marketing company. So, finally i went 2 interview today and 1 tomorrow. Today was so rush and nervours. I'm so scared.. in my life.. this is the 1st time.. like a real and formal interview.. But badly.. the moment i received such good news.. no1 i can share with. Even holding such.. nervous, scared, happy feelings.. i also couldn't express out. Of course.. Heavenly Father is the one.. i can rely on!. But, i really sad and dissapointment.. why always person u love.. make u upset and couldn't go through such hard moments with u! I really wonder why must he hurt me in this way.

What makes the matter so huge until.. come to such important time.. i still get abandon. In this moment also make me realise and see the real attitude of a person.. make me realise.. who are the always there by myside.. and real to me. I really appreciate those.. who always cares no matter what. Thanks a lot. For people.. who hurt me and couldn't understand me... this maybe because he loves himself more than anyone. I pray that he will learn how to love and appreciate things around him. Lord please be with all of us.. and listen to my prayer. Guide us through this hard moments and show me the way.. especially in my future and career pathway. I believe You will provide me and You have Your arrangment. Please Lord, comfort my broken heart... pray that i could recover soon from the wound. Thank you Lord Father, thanks for listening to my prayers and provide me such wonderful opputunity to learn and experience You Lord! All these in the name of Jesus Christ! AMEN!