Feelings that Hard to Express

Today i was very happy because my cousin Chris from Melb came back with his family! So i can see my two lovely niece and nephew. They are staying in my place. I'm so glad to see them and whenever we have conversation make me think of melbourne so much. Apart from that, they bought me a box of cherries. I nearly forgot now is summer and the season come for all the fruits. I remember how every summer we went to pick cherries and ate tones of them while watching TV. Now is like this box of cherries refresh/ give me a very close feelings. I miss Melb and those life so much. Thanks my cousin bought me such wonderful cherries!

Well, another heart feel unpeace and sad because my cousin (Meng) is in hospital now. He got affected the denggi fever, got by the virus mosquito. He been sick since last week and now in hospital for 2 nights already. My aunty and uncle really very worry. My aunty also keep sad, nervous, crying and look pale. She hardly eat and sleep. She talked to me with the sorrow in her eyes. I feel helpless and sad in heart. For her is like she willing to do anythign as long as my cousin bro can recover. i pray that Lord Father will be with him and the family. Especially my aunty and uncle that need energy to look after my cousin day and night. Heavenly Father, please cure my cousin and make miracle happen in their family. Let them know where the power come from and know God from this inccident.

Partly, my heart feel unpeace and scare because i make some decision that my parents will upset. I also dunno how.. is like i really wanna do that.. but they just think i'm not acting maturely. I know, i am not. But sometimes i need time to cope life here. I really dunno how.. Sorry Lord Father. Please forgive me disobedience and sinful child. Human are really week and they love to come with tones of reasons when they are in fault. So, please i pray for my sin and hope i can growth and learn from everyday lessons. Also pray the coming year will lead me to a new pathway of my career. I really need Lord to show me the way. I dowan keep on dragging like this.. Although i tot that's what i gonna be.. but it seems that i'm not gonna learn and get benefit from this environment.
Oh.. also pray for the coming week that my cousin (Peng) wedding.. i will be the "bride assistant" heheheh.. dunno wat it call. Anyway, will help out during her wedding la. So i hope i can "pan leng" and be pretty gal that night. :)
I pray that Lord will give a Happy, Loving, Healthy and Wonderful family@home to this new couple. May Lord be with me and everything that happen around me. Thank You Lord Jesus! AMEN!