Really miss everything and everyone in Melb!!!

Out of sudden, i feel so depress and miserable. I want to go home to much to melb. I really miss everyone back there... miss my life, my church, my bro& sis, my fren, my car and my old rented house. WHY??? Lord Father, why You sent me back. For the first two weeks i can see the reason. But now my mum getting better, i hardly help out in her company. Somtimes because of opinion.. me and my dad might get into hard discussion. This really make me feel myself useless and can't help out anything. I really dunno what to do and the purpose being here. I REALLY DOWAN THINGS TO CHANGE!!! why can't we stay in those sweet time for long.. always face changes and different stage. I really wonder why human's life have to growth? Can't i be baby for the rest of my life??? AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh... i really feel hard and misreable!! why must we face all these in life? i have ups and down since i back. busy life and no time for me to online. Espceially the comp broken.. i hate the most! i really miss my old life.. miss frens there, miss lap as well. Dunno how to handle and control my own emotions. Can;t support and help lap as well. Hate myself so much...
Guys, i really miss u guys... today suddenly i cried none stop and listen to the hmys that Jacky& Aiwa gave me ( i mean the CD). I also miss Can Can's song. Wondering when i can hear that again. Although i will be back but i know things n life also would be different. Haih~~ i dowan all these changes. Father, please guide me and be with me. i really dunno what my future would be. haih~~~....